every beat of my heart

Monday, July 23, 2007

My thoughts..

i feel sometimes ppl really don't understand u..unless they themselves are really in your shoes..

when i say i'm can't...it's not that i PURPOSELY can't ..it means 'i want to badly but due to some circumstances i can't and that i'm really sorry but i really can't but i want to badly'. and the reply i get its like i purposely can't and that its rude of me or inconsiderate of me that i can't.

haha..i knw its a bit confusing but i just want to get it out of my head.it's really maddening or disappointing sometimes when ppl or even close friends do not understand the plight i'm in..they simply don't understand.

It's not as if i want sympathy..far than that..i deserve to be in this state but i would just want them to understand ..really UNDERSTAND and respect my decision. don't knw la..mebe i'm too sensitive.

another thought..its really eating me when ppl called me another name! few times its fine but after like a year plus..? i'm getting annoyed.yes i am.. and i hope i won't get irriated to the point i'll snap at that person coz it wouldn't be nice.yeah some ppl are forgetful but personally i think it gotta stop sooner or later.

its not as if my name's too long or too difficult to pronounce..is it my fault? i don't think so.

i think it's my time of the month *cross fingers*

p/s: i'm looking for a part time job during weekends..yeah shai wld be working most of the time even weekends..so i'd though i'll get a part time job to keep me entertained/busy .. and yeah of coz y not for extra moolah rite...i'll go crazzzzzzyy at home the whole day..i almost did this past weekend haha. Soooo.. anybody has any recommendations, information blah blah kindly let me know. danke!