Thursday, July 07, 2005
Define friendship..
ahhh...its been a while yes?..*nods* *nods*
a recent incident has urged me to make a blog entry.. to pen hmm or type (since its a keyboard) my thoughts and my feelings. I may be attacking myself or making myself look bad in the end but oh well ..wat the heck :)
Friendship? what does it means? person A has been friends with person B for more than a decade.. ( well 2 years absence in between due to some misunderstanding which involves person B with person C which is closely related w person A. During that misunderstanding person A is totally clueless .. *rolls eyes*)
its gonna get pretty longwinded coz i want to write everything that is in my head which i deemed appropriate.
so last year say ard the later part of the year person B introduced to me to some of her friends which she thinks/strongly believes/surely believe that were not my types..(hmm do u need a type to be a friend with someone?..i leave it to u readers to make ur own assumption and decision)
well i make a few comments abt the ppl i just knew to this personB (comments which i say are better not known to the ppl talked abt even though its not GradeA bitchiness..well nobody wants to know wat ppl commented abt them , am i right?..)
recently this personB say somethin like i shld be more careful with wat i say to the new friends because soemtimes i may indirectly hurt the other ppls feeling..
ok let me describe myself..i'm not young anymore, i only joke roughly/praised myself/or act proud with my closest friends not with ppl i just knew and my close frens knew its jsut me fooling around.. so i can't accept the fact the personB said that!.. Firstly, i'm pretty laidback when i'm w the new friends.. i don't open my mouth much except to contribute a laugh or 2 or more..whatever.. does laughing too much HURT ppl feelings? if yes i apologise..
so feeling unjustified i strive to sort out the truth and ended up with a discovery!!! Tada!!! i was shocked, humiliated, embarassed, sad, angry, (hmm wat else, i would add more if i happen to come across more suitable adjectives)thanks to personB backstabbing ( is dat the correct word? btw, personB thinks/believes/is sure that its not a wrong thing to do though..hmm...) -*i need to add the next line because recently a certain person reading my blog doesn't seems to understand the seriousness of the whole situation..bodoh* - personB actually spills out everything i tell her to new friends! personB always say 'whatever we say its just between us'..what a hypocrite and lier..
oh well shld i say more, i'll have little time now..i'll update again later ..but before that i shall write this...
All is well with the new frens i hope..thanks to that particular someone for understanding *peace* i got respect for u..
for personB i was wondering..where did i go wrong? what were you thinking??!! are u insane? or are u just being PATHETIC OR STUPID? (i would add more if i happen to come across more suitable adjectives)
10 years of friendship doesn't mean you can trust that person ... hell i don't even know how to define friendship... i shld use trust-ship or loyal-ship or something...
This is a first for me , I hope there won't be a second...and whatever hurtful things i say or offensive to ANYBODY i came across (except personB, not worth it, i'm really hurt) I'm sorry. Take care..
Adryan Azli